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okay You only go out at night, like a real vampire. Edward smiled wryly. His face suddenly tightened. - Will stay in Forks, Bella. Or somewhere like that - he explained - a place where he no longer hurt you anymore. His words fell backwards. I was still blankly looking at him, empty ... and then every word, every single word on my head was like vague, unfamiliar sounds. The only thing I can really perceive now is the heartbeat of alf. I, as my breath began to crumble, wound on the ribs just as someone was throwing in. Edward did not say a word, he just sat still and looked at me cautiously. The pain of doing nothing with the broken bones seemed so horrible, I felt like it was about to strangle me to a place. Another nurse entered the room with a purpose. Edward stood motionless as the nurse observed my attitude with a pair of experienced eyes, before turning to the computer screen. Have you been taking painkillers, girl? "The lady asked kindly, began to remove the infusion tube from my hand." Yes, no, no - I mumbled, trying not to be disturbed in my voice - I do not need anything. - I do not bend the spirit that tolerate the type of eyes closed as the past. - No need to show courage, baby. If you do not want nervous tension then that's the best way - The nurse waits for me, but I'm still panting and shaking my head. - Okay - The woman sighs - Remember to press the emergency button when you think again? . And the nurse threw Edward a stern look, then threw a suspicious look at the heart rate meter before leaving his room. Edward put his hands on my cheek, and I responded with a wild look. "Shhh, Bella, calm me down. - Do not leave me - I pleaded, broken voice. - I will never do that - I promise - Now I rest before I call the nurse back to give him a sedative. But my heart has not yet calmed down. - Bella - You stroked my face nervously - I will not go anywhere. You will stay, as long as I still need you. - Do you swear that you will never leave me? "I whispered. At least I'm trying to control my quick breathing. The ribs begin to shake. Edward hugged my face, bending his face close to my face. His eyes widened, solemnly: "I swear it. Your breath glows in my face. The pain of my breathing suddenly softened. He continued to stare into my eyes as my body slowly relaxed, and the beeping sounded back to normal. Today, Edward's eyes darkened, they turned black rather than yellow. - Did you get better? "He asked. - Yes - I cautiously answered. Slowly shaking his head, he muttered something small. I hear a glimpse of the phrase "strong reaction". - Why do you talk to me like that? I whispered, trying not to let my voice tremble. "Are you tired of saving your life all the time? Do you want to leave me? - No, honestly I do not want to leave you one minute, Bella. Please wake up again. How tired you are to save me. Is not he the one who pushed you into a dangerous place ... It was you that caused me to be here. - Yes, I'm the cause - I frowned - The reason I lie here and alive. - Ừ, alive - his voice is no more than a whisper - which must be cast, bandaged all around, unable to move. - What was the last time I nearly died? I began to retort, exasperated - He was in spite of all that put himself and his family in danger ... while he can choose. Without you, this time, I was lying outside the cemetery of the town of Forks, but not here. Edward wrinkled his face in front of my words, but the look of pain had not disappeared from his eyes. "Anyway, that was not the worst," he continued, whispering, as if I had not said anything yet - not as bad as seeing him lying motionless on the floor ... bruising and fracturing - His voice choked back - It is not as bad as he thought he was late. It was not bad at all by listening to his screams in pain ... All that would be the sad memories he carried. follow you forever And above all, it is still the feeling ... that you can not stop. The feeling of knowing that I'm going to die in your hands ... - But you can control it. - You can kill me. That too easy. I know I need to be calm ... but you keep talking about separation. The panic is swaying in my lungs, just in case. - Promise me. - Promise? - I know - Now I can not control the anger anymore.He stubborn, alwaysg only to think negatively. As I realized the change in my voice, his eyes dropped. - I'm not strong enough to get away from you, so I hope you let go of me ... no matter how much it hurts me - Edward added brutally - he is so good - so I do not promise, a fact that I have not missed. The panic has not vanished, I'm not strong enough to stop the anger that's about to explode - I let you know how I stopped ... now I want to know why - hard way. - Why? - He became alert. - Why would he do that. Why do not you let the venom spread? For now I will be like you. Edward's eyes were completely black, and I remembered something he never wanted me to know. I'm sure Alice was worried about what she had anticipated ... or maybe she wanted to be careful about what was going on with Edward - obviously he could not have expected Alice to tell me all about it. The changes to become vampires. He surprised and angry. His nostrils fluttered, and each ring was as stiff as a stone. Edward did not answer, that was obvious. - I admit that I have no experience in relationships - I say- But I find that this is justified ... a guy and a girl need to be equal to some degree ... in it, It is not always possible to have only one person at risk to save the other. Both of them must help each other fairly. Edward pondered over my bed, his arms folded against his chest, his chin resting on one hand. He calm down, the anger has subsided. Obviously he decided not to be angry with me. I hope I have a chance to warn Alice before he vent her anger. - I saved him - He was silent. - I can not always be Lois Lane forever - I insist to the end - I also want to be superhero anymore. "I do not know what I'm asking for." Edward's voice was soothing, he looked at the pillow in his ass. - I think I know. - Bella, I do not know. For almost ninety years, he has been constantly thinking about this, even though he is not sure yet. - So you wish that Dr. Carlisle did not save you? - No, I did not have the wish - Edward stopped for a while before saying the next - But his life seemed to have ended. He had to give up everything. - You are my life. You are the only thing that makes time m break if you lose - I was more comfortable saying this. I need you know how much. Edward was still calm. Finally, he also said: - You can not do that, Bella. I will not do that to you. - Why not? - My throat began to show signs of dryness, my voice was bigger than my intention - Do not tell me that it is too difficult! After yesterday, well, after a few days, ... well, after that, it's not a formidable thing. Edward looked at me horribly. - What about the pain? - He asked me back. At this time, my face was pale with no blood. Yes, I could not stand it. I try not to show the feeling that I am recalling that feeling - fire is burning in the arteries. - That's my story - I calmly answered - I will solve it myself. I have to die again and again, so miserable that I want to go crazy, I do not know why. - That is not the problem. It only takes three days. How horrible it is! My words made him understand that I was aware of all the things that he hid for so long. He was trying to refrain from getting upset with me, which was apparent in his eyes. - What about my dad? - He asked his mother -? Each minute passed in silence as I was thinking of answering him. I gasped, but no sound came out. Embarrassed, I shut my mouth. Edward waited

patiently, his face unconcealed, he knew I would not have the right answer. Finally, I whispered, my voice was paralyzed, there was no convincing to say when it was a lie. - My mother always made the decision when she was in love. new situation ... and mother always want you like mother. his father is a lively, independent living. All my life, I can not do anything at all, I have to pay attention to the attitude of parents. I have my own life. - Exactly - He's horizontal - And I will not finish that life for you. So you wait until I'm waiting for you to die! By the way, I almost met him! - You're recovering! He reminded me to calm down. I breathed in a deep breath, ignoring the contraction on both sides to affect the attack. I glared at him, staring back at me. On his face there was no sign of compromise. - No - I'm slow